1.11.2010

Change is good....





I don't know what happened.



I do.....



but i don't.



I am one of those girls that really doesn't make resolutions when the



new year comes about.



Don't get me wrong....



i have goals...



aspirations...



dreams....



things that i would love to do and then



they present themselves to me....



{more to come on that later..}



and i freak out.



Then i can't sleep.....



i toss and turn all night....



come downstairs at 4 in the morning ...start my coffee....



drinking about fifteen cups.....



then head back upstairs at 6......



soon the husband wakes up and says to me....



how'd you sleep?



This is when i lovingly look at him...



and say...



great dear...just great.



Then i'm agitated all day......



even though i made half calf.....



and i can feel the lead seeping thru my veins....



this is the point when a friend will call ....



to meet for coffee after i drop the kids



off at school.....



and the cycle starts all over.








I find i have a hard time balancing things.....



it really should be so easy....but it takes me forever



to get things done.....



{maybe cuz i'm here on the computer instead of organizing the pantry..like i should be doing}



I've also come to realize over this last week...



that i don't take care of myself like i should.



Maybe it's this freakish cold weather....



because all i want to do is sit in my cozzies and



eat my children's frosted flakes.....


{right out of the box...no milk needed}



I'm a bona fide snacker.



There.....i said it.



I snack....and i snack all freakin day long.



I hate it.....



i hate that i'm feeling like i have no control...



when in reality....



i have all the control...



it's my body...and i'm ruining it.



I also hate to exercise.....



the only reason i really go to the gym is because i



can watch a little tele while i bounce away on that



machine called the elliptical.



ugggh.



Don't get me started on boot camp classes either....



because this class is taught by a very good friend, and i know



all the girls that go to class....



religiously....



these girls are there every tuesday and thursday...



and you know what.....



their bodies are like rocks......hard..and tight.



I come bouncing in.....



with my tush....literally.....bouncing....



thru all 1000 jumping jacks....



up n down the 8 flights of stairs {and back}..


that we have to do....



bouncing...jiggling.....



i swear....i'm the only one rolling my eye's



the entire class....



then i head home....



and pour myself a big ole glass of wine...



{no doubt..about a couple hundred calories...}



with no need to change into my cozzies...



cuz they are already on from class.








Hello, my name is kasey....



and i want my body back.



Did you hear that......



i want my body back!



I want to be able to sit down without my stomach



rolling out over my jeans.



Goodbye spare tire......i don't like you!



So.....



with this being said.....



that i am not much of a resolution type of girl....



but more of a goal driven girl....



i hereby state.....



my goal in this moment...is to take my body



back.



I want to focus on just one goal at a time...one day at a time...



one minute at a time.



Yup....one minute at a time.


xo


Oh.....


and yes...i changed up my blog header.....


yes i did.


Sometimes change is good.....


though it took me forever to actually push the


button that says " DO IT".


I did....




*those fabulous photo's above are from Violet Bella photography.













72 comments:

Anita said...

Good for you. Change is good. But if the weather were just a little nicer, say, oh, ABOVE ZERO, then maybe it would feel better to change out of cozies. I think now I will go on the cabbage sop diet. Soup sounds good, huh?

Come see my giveaway. April in Paris is coming soon!

Reese & Marie said...

Wow Kasey, this post really struck a chord. I am in a very emotional place about my weight and LIFE IN GENERAL and I too am determined to take back the control and get back to the "old" me. I dug out tons of pictures last night... couldn't believe how much I have changed... for the good and for the worse, in the last 10 years. I totally support your goals and I know exactly what you feel like. Here's to 2010 being the year that we take back the control, in whatever form that means.

and i hate new years resolutions too. just so ya know.

Amy Muffoletto said...

I am just gonna say....YOU GO GIRL!!!! You got it in you...Take that body back. Goodness I hear so much of my own struggles and thoughts in this post. You surely inspired me today. Hugs, AMY

Heather K. said...

Love it! I am not a resolution girl either but I think setting goals is a great alternative. I look forward to hearing about your progress!

Simply Me Art said...

Blogger ate my comment, It's not Easy balancing it all, I have this issue daily. I don't like the gym either and exercising, ugh...only do it cuz I Must...xo Love the New Blog Header, change is good to me, My Kids, they Dred it..

Tracey said...

Oh now I see why you want me to go with you to boot camp, you need another soft body in there so you don't feel so bad...wait a minute, you have a very nice body, I'd be the only squishy one there - I'm not going...BTW, you're too hard on yourself!!

Have to look fabulous for Paris though, right?!

LOVE the new header!


Must go to bed now...

:) T

Chez Zizi said...

You go girl!
Don't feel bad, I don't like the gym and would probably die during a boot camp class (and to think i used to be an all star softball player).
Lots of luck and support from me on Taking your body back.
Zizette

Cathi said...

I'm doing the same thing - taking my body back...it won't be the same as in my younger years, but I am firming up a bit - eating healthier, bouncing on the eliptical, stretching and doing some walking outdoors...Good luck to all of us with new years goals! xxoo

Kathy's Red Door Welcome said...

I have, myself, been saying I want my old body back for about the last twenty years now...that being said, I have been actually working at taking care of myself for about two years now. Needless to say, the longer you wait the harder it gets! One minute at time works for me! I'm never giving up! Do you hear me? I'm never giving up!

Miss Gracie's House said...

Once you decide...You CAN do it!
Rene'

Martha said...

Kasey...you are one gorgeous girl my dear...inside and out...just remember that...but I completely understand how you want to have your body back in "your eyes"...you will do it...I know it...and completely love that you are goal orientated...me too...and part of it is hard...my excercising is at a hault because of the weather...when it gets 5 and 8, 10...yah the runs halted...and the gym doesn't accept less than 2 year olds...so darn it!

Mary said...

Love the new header...it is quite fabulous! Can't wait to hear what "aspirations" are happening! Don't keep us in suspense! ~mary~

Kristin said...

it seems all so overwhelming...so hang in there...you can do it!!...i have been trying to take my body back for almost three years now...sigh...i don't think all the wonderful dr. pepper and fritos help much...
you are beautiful and such an inspiration..try not to be to hard on yourself...spring is almost here :0)

Martha said...

By the way....LOVE your new header...it is beautiful...the pictures are perfect!

amyG said...

Get a Wii - and the Wii Fit Plus or the EA Active Sports More Workouts or Your Shape for the Wii. I started using Wii Fit and cut my portions on April 25, 2009 - by September I went from a size 12 jean to a size 4. Lost 5 1/2 inches in my hips, 3 in the waist and 2 in the bust. I am post menopausal and I thought I'd never get the weight off me. I lost 28 pounds. Visit wiimommies.com it's a community of woman who use the wii to get and stay fit. I didn't have to leave the house and have a total blast using Wii FIt.

Ali said...

Oh, Kasey I have missed you and your blog! What a fabulous new header! ABSOLUTELY.LOVE.IT! I am soooo with you on your resolution! I too want my body back, Amelia is 18 month old and I'm afraid the "baby fat" excuse is no longer going to cut it! Have a fabulous day and here's to new resolutions, one step at a time! Now, off to play catch-up!

Mel said...

Kasey,
I am from the Barn and just love the heck out of Beth and Jeanne and the others...My name is Mel.
I also completely echo your body back pledge, you read my mail for sure...Best wishes on your minute by minute, thats the best way.
LOVE the new header,
Mel

Kacey said...

Totally with you! After two kids and lazy eating habits, my body is NOT what is used to be. Good for you!

Love the new header!

mandiegirl said...

Yay! Proud of you girl! Love the new banner!!!

The Little Red Shop said...

Dear Mrs. Goodyear,

I hear ya, I definitely hear ya!

: )

Julie M.

ps Love the new blog header!

Simply Mel said...

YES! Bring it back sistah! You can do it! Go Kasey Go!

Julie Harward said...

Oh you sweet thing! I think you had a, not so good day! We all have them and weight goes up and weight goes down. After all my years of dieting here and there, I've found that all I need to do is walk every day or at least 5 days a week. Eat a little less, better foods not all sweets. Some days I eat too much or too many sweets but I then balance it out again. I just eat some of whatever I want..the walking 3 miles a day really helps mind as well as body. Don't be down on yourself..all women have rolls in one place or another, they just hide it well. Go after it but make it a life..daily thing. Love ya! Come say hi :D

Tracy is ... Loving Pretty Things said...

right there with you girl. 2010 is gonna be a good one!

LOVE. the new header. So you - so personal and fantastic!

xoxo

Victoria@WhimsybyVictoria said...

Kasey...I so understand this post! The one thing that would make me the happiest...to have my body back...only I can do it...so I am trying. You are so beautiful just the way you are, hard to imagine you feel that way...but we all know what we want for ourselves...you can do it! ;) I love your new header...change is a good thing!

Hugs to you friend,
~Victoria~

Simone said...

I absolutely LOVE this post Kasey, it definitely struck a chord with me.

And I love the new blog header, gorgeous!

xo

Jacqueline said...

Dear Kasey,
I think that, at this time of year, many people get a bit down about their appearance, I don't for the life of me know why you are worrying. Whenever you post pictures of yourself, you look lovely. It's definitely the time of year.
I am hopeless with change in every respect. I keep seeing that lots of blogs have changed their header but, when I think of doing it, I can't !!.... same wih the layout ....same with everything !!!!
Have another glass of wine !!!!!! hehe. XXXX

Jerri said...

I soo am with you girl! This time of the year I always feel overwhelmed about just about everything but never give up and never quit trying! Looking forward to "Cinderalla's Ball"...see you there!
~hugs~

Donna said...

Change is good, change is hard!!! I will be saying some prayers for you to reach that goal!!! Love the new header!

KarenSue said...

Oh my Kasey, I thought I was the only one. My christmas stuff is all on the table. I should be doing that. I can't seem to get one thing done and I only work about 1-2 times a week and my girls are 17,20 and 27, they don't need me anymore as much.
It's ok though, it will get done before next christmas-I promise!
Happy day to you.

Party Box Design said...

ugh I sooo hear you. before charlotte i was a hot lil lady... now I am tired, tired, frumpy, and jiggly.

good for you! i hope i can get my body back too

Preppy Mama said...

Amen! I am so with you. I swear you were describing me!! You're not alone.
Oh, I love your new header!!

littlebyrd said...

Love your new header. Love your writing :) You can do this!!!!

Michelle@Fromhousetohome said...

I'd say there are many of us that feel the same way, struggle with the same issues. I was doing really well with sparkpeople and haven't logged in for over two weeks, ugh. I said to my hubby the other day that I just have no motivation and it's making me feel terrible about myself.

You can do it, we'll all be here cheering you on. And maybe it will become contagious. Good luck!
~Michelle

P.S. Love the new header!

paige said...

when your new bod arrives
i'll take over the old one
which i'm certain
is smaller
than my current one!
( that might sound kinky & weird but i know you understand my humor)

& i tossed and turned from 130 too
UGH

LOVIN the header my friend
glad you did it!

& ps
i'm headed to kickboxing
but i'd rather be here creating my vintage photo mirror collage
sigh
are you off to bootie camp?

talk soon
xo

http://chambersmade.blogspot.com said...

I'm also "changing" for the first time in a long time...I decided to do a triathlon in JUNE...that's so NOT me...crazy about change... here is my blog about it.
http://chambersmade.blogspot.com/2010/01/please-keep-laughing-to-minimum.html
keep at it, you can do it!

Andrea - Faded Plains said...

I know exactly what you mean. Last week I bought EA Active for my wii and have been doing it for a week now...let me just say...I'm using muscles I haven't used..errr...never used.

Kristin said...

...and you will do it my friend....you just will and we will be here cheering you on all the while.

I have been working much and not blogging. I have missed your words that make me smile in a day.

Hoping your 2010 amazing and that you get your body back...just gotta be a trier that is all.

Smiles, Kristin

Leah C said...

Wow...did you crawl inside my head? Because I've been hearing the same lil' voice telling me some very similar things! You're absolutely right...change is good. So, why do I resist it? Guess I'll take your advice: "one minute at a time". Sounds good:)
P.S. I really like your new banner!

Joyce said...

You even make exercising sound like fun! Enjoy! xo

paperhill said...

i LOVE your new banner! goals are good, i find the exercise one tought to stick too, so you're not alone :) xo

Jackie said...

Balance was my resolution. WIth three kids its hard and finding time for just me is harder. Good luck and I get the Mag Clean Eating, love it and it helps especially with the kids!! Enjoy your day:)I am actually off to the gym.....and I love love your banner!!

a.love said...

best text i got last night--right as christan walked in the door and dinner had to be made, "read about my butt."
lol
:)
you can DO IT!

Sarah said...

Good luck on your new years changes. If you take it day by day it will get easier! Ease subtle changes in and the easier it will be, doing it all at once is sure to cause frustration and make you want to give up, so take baby steps! :)
I love you new header.

Tiffany said...

I LOVE the new blog header! Wow, so perfect! Fits Lola B's to a T!

Also, you had me all inspired to get my body back after reading your post and then I remembered I am pregnant with my third, which means my body is long gone and I may never see it again. Oh, well. I'll bookmark this post for 9 months after the baby is born and see what I can do! Ha.

Shawn Seay said...

Love the new header!!!!! Ummmm... and you strummed a cord with me. I am in the same boat. I am trying to take back my body..slowly. I'd like it to be a twinkle your nose effect, however. From your pictures, I'd say, you look fabuous! Have a wonderful day, Kasey!
Shawn

Morning T said...

LOVE your new header Kasey-it's great!!
You can and will get your body back...now that you're that frustrated about it you will do it. Just figure out a way to offset the wine because I know that's something I'm NOT willing to forego on a daily basis, regardless of how jiggly I get. :-)

B said...

Wow. That was like reading about myself! The only part that was different was the bit about the tummy when you sit down...and that's only cuz, erm, I had...a little operation...just a lttle one, to make it go away - sshhhh, don't tell! You go girl, strike while the irons hot. Or... I can give you the number of a very good doctor - just kidding :O) B x

Brandie said...

Love it honey! The new header and the post. I think this is something we are all going to be working on this year. I posted some emarassing things about my weight on my 365 blog and I really need to follow through on my goals to not only lose weight but take care of myself like I should. No more chocolate croissants, I swear. Well, I might as well finish the box, right?

paula said...

I am one for change. Love the new header. If I can't sleep well my husband is sure to hear about it in the morning, so this in turn makes you better than I. I am starting to take my body back too. No sweets for a month and smaller portions paired with working out. we will see how it goes.

Heather said...

I am right there with you. I want my body back too. I have let myself go. I did it to myself, and I can't get motivated to exercise and can't control myself around food. We can do it, though!

I love your blog. It is so beautiful. I love the photos, your writing style, and your overall style.

LuLu said...

Oh your header is beautiful! You can do this... I can't see you not being able to accomplish anything you set your mind to!
my package arrived and i danced around the kitchen! thanks friend,
xo,
LuLu

Rachel said...

I hear you...I think we are all in need of a little change in our lives, may it all be different to each one of us...I love the new look of your blog...beautiful!! xoxo

Vana said...

You are my inspiration Kasey. I needed to read this...I have been pushing and pushing away...but it's now time to take control. We'll be rolling soon sista...

XOXO

Vana

2Belles2Beaux4me said...

I could have written this post myself! My thoughts are intertwined with yours. KMostly about my weight. And my hubby went out of town for a week to visit his Mom and all I did was snack, drink wine at night and eat these little cheesecake pretties I bought at costco. The body is screaming, "Feed me well". Hubby is home and now I do not feel like snacking as much, oh and BTW, I have looked at every TJ Maxx, Marshall's and Ross within a 75 mile radius of me and cannot find those ruffley shoes !! I must have them!! Hope your hubby is home or is coming home soon, I'm sure you will not feel the need to snack as much. BTW, every time I drink one of those Starbucks drinks I know I'm adding a gazillion pounds but I don't stop...Rrrr.

Wendy @ The Shabby Nest said...

Ah, my dear. I am right there with you. How I want to take my body back. That's my number one goal for this year too. Doesn't help that the 20 year class reunion is this year (ugh! that makes me sound old). Gotta get some of these pounds off and tighten up the tummy before I see some of those people again. sigh.
And as I said when we talked the other day, I love the new header!

Laura said...

what?
can you say that all again?
You lost me.

OK, so you rambled a bit...just a bit...maybe all the coffee???

but of course, I followed.
I am ADD. I can follow anything..many things, actually, all at once...I may have an anxiety attack while doing it, but still...I do it

and you can to
DO IT, that is.

I am in the very same process of reclaiming my body
my life
my day
my year
my hour
my minute
and so far..so good..
sort of
a bit out of control
house a mess
but tiny steps
in ruffled shoes

ok, I am in sneakers
but you can wear your ruffle shoes

you do have the control
and now I am rambling
when I should be making a cake
or seeing why the kid is crying

how long is this comment?
too long
kid still crying

think I will get rid of my children now
just for a change
change IS good
right?

(the scream is because the hamster just got lost again)

Suzann said...

Go Kasey!

Fringe said...

i believe we can all relate to your feelings. i admire your honesty and your goal. i have great faith that you can do whatever you set your mind to.

i would like to recommend mixing the elliptical(aka torture machine) with walking, if the weather permits. walking is such a wonderful way to start your day. it clears your mind and makes you healthy (especially if you have some good hills in your neighborhood.

resolutions are not part of my vocabulary either, but goals are excellent. wishing you every success!

and i love the new header. it's dreamy!
xo

Suzanne : : S.HOPtalk said...

You know me so well!!! Oh wait...that post wasn't about me? Next time you're up in the middle of the night, email me...I've been sleepless in Sac since the start of the New Year. Perhaps we can motivate each other to stay on track! ; )

Amy Sutter said...

I think you were writing what is in my head!!! lol!! I too hate to exercise.. I keep praying that that will change and I will wake up one day and just committ.. lol! I hope that this is your year and mine too :-)
blessings
AMY
oh btw... I am having a giveawayon my blog!

Brenna LaPray said...

You go girl!! You're inspiring me once again. I too am going to get my body back!! I just wish it didn't require less food and exercise. (sigh)

Bonnie said...

Does this mean no more cupcakes? *tear*

If you stay motivated, maybe you can help me stay on track. You see, there are such temptations, like cupcakes for instance, that always seem to prevent me from getting my body back. Too many cupcakes and too few walks. My dog would appreciate more walks, so my goal tomorrow will be a walk... and I won't treat myself to a cupcake afterwards...

Dreamy header!!

traci said...

hey kasey - great new blog banner. love it!!! can't wait to see you saturday. i will give you a call tomorrow.

Jennifer said...

Having had Cancer this summer changed my life - I see things through new eyes - you are fantastic - you have goals, you love cushy things, you take care of you in bits and pieces but love your loved ones - creative, oh yes you are. So breathe, pick 1 drawer, 1 sit-up, 1 hug, 1 blog and then breathe again. You are loved. Jennifer

My Casa Bella said...

You described probably every other woman out there, so you're not alone. One change at a time, I agree because I'm doing the same thing. Less overwhelming, less dissappointments and less frustrations that way. One day at a time!

Transparent Mama said...

I am right there with you. I choose to take my body back too.

Ash said...

I hear ya!!! I choose to get my body back too!!

Rue said...

I want my body back too. If you find it after you get yours back, will you let mine know? I haven't seen it in over a year.... almost 2.... and I miss it :(

Love your new blog header :)

xoxo,
rue

Gail said...

I want my body back, too. And it's no even so much weight...but I feel so lethargic & tired all the time. I want energy! Good luck. ;)

-Gail

MODERN Prairie Girl said...

Go, go, go!!! That's me over here waving a cheerleader-type pompom at you from the sidelines.

I'm right there with you..which is why Jillian (from "Loser" fame) is kicking my caboose in my freezing cold garage every morning at 6:00...getting up SUCKS, but I'm finding the alternative (hello, Mr. Muffin Top) is not fabulous.

Good luck in the fight...you'll do great!

heidi @ wonder woman wannabe said...

I'm workin'g toward the same goal with ya, girl!

In your love of all things French, have you ever heard of the book -

"French Women Don't Get Fat"??

I shared about it in my post about my wt. loss goal here:
http://1wonderwomanwannabe.blogspot.com/2010/01/can-i-have-my-sweets-loose-weight-too.html

Kim Caldwell said...

Fabulous! Me tooooo. . .

Hugs, Kim