Change is good....

I don't know what happened.

I do.....

but i don't.

I am one of those girls that really doesn't make resolutions when the

new year comes about.

Don't get me wrong....

i have goals...

aspirations...

dreams....

things that i would love to do and then

they present themselves to me....

{more to come on that later..}

and i freak out.

Then i can't sleep.....

i toss and turn all night....

come downstairs at 4 in the morning ...start my coffee....

drinking about fifteen cups.....

then head back upstairs at 6......

soon the husband wakes up and says to me....

how'd you sleep?

This is when i lovingly look at him...

and say...

great dear...just great.

Then i'm agitated all day......

even though i made half calf.....

and i can feel the lead seeping thru my veins....

this is the point when a friend will call ....

to meet for coffee after i drop the kids

off at school.....

and the cycle starts all over.

I find i have a hard time balancing things.....

it really should be so easy....but it takes me forever

to get things done.....

{maybe cuz i'm here on the computer instead of organizing the pantry..like i should be doing}

I've also come to realize over this last week...

that i don't take care of myself like i should.

Maybe it's this freakish cold weather....

because all i want to do is sit in my cozzies and

eat my children's frosted flakes.....

{right out of the box...no milk needed}

I'm a bona fide snacker.

There.....i said it.

I snack....and i snack all freakin day long.

I hate it.....

i hate that i'm feeling like i have no control...

when in reality....

i have all the control...

it's my body...and i'm ruining it.

I also hate to exercise.....

the only reason i really go to the gym is because i

can watch a little tele while i bounce away on that

machine called the elliptical.

ugggh.

Don't get me started on boot camp classes either....

because this class is taught by a very good friend, and i know

all the girls that go to class....

religiously....

these girls are there every tuesday and thursday...

and you know what.....

their bodies are like rocks......hard..and tight.

I come bouncing in.....

with my tush....literally.....bouncing....

thru all 1000 jumping jacks....

up n down the 8 flights of stairs {and back}..

that we have to do....

bouncing...jiggling.....

i swear....i'm the only one rolling my eye's

the entire class....

then i head home....

and pour myself a big ole glass of wine...

{no doubt..about a couple hundred calories...}

with no need to change into my cozzies...

cuz they are already on from class.

Hello, my name is kasey....

and i want my body back.

Did you hear that......

i want my body back!

I want to be able to sit down without my stomach

rolling out over my jeans.

Goodbye spare tire......i don't like you!

So.....

with this being said.....

that i am not much of a resolution type of girl....

but more of a goal driven girl....

i hereby state.....

my goal in this moment...is to take my body

back.

I want to focus on just one goal at a time...one day at a time...

one minute at a time.

Yup....one minute at a time.

xo

Oh.....

and yes...i changed up my blog header.....

yes i did.

Sometimes change is good.....

though it took me forever to actually push the

button that says " DO IT".

I did....

*those fabulous photo's above are from Violet Bella photography.